I swam out to the ocean with you by my side Getting deeper and deeperI did not recognize you had pulled me back back to the shallows
I am so perplexed by this emotion that fills me I have no outlet to express it I am so paralyzed by the feelings that flood my mind but no room to show it I am so dazed by everything around me there is no room for anything else cluttered heart cluttered mind at one point in time I had peace of mind I was free to fly but the weight of my heart keeps me grounded As the black veil in my mind I choose to hide what I have always seen 3 years and counting this story has not changed Ridden with a depth that always tunnels deeper my mind is consumed no room....
Baby touch my scars
I am ready for you to feel my skin
in a way I have never felt
sliver in your mind
. . . All the cracks in your mind led to this place. I could never see more than the faint outline of swaying trees behind this plexiglass sliver in your mind. . . - The Sincerest
To be honest I am a lot more heart broken than I thought.
I opened up more than I thought.
I dreamed a lot more than I though.
I truly felt A LOT more than I thought.
We were never together,
But now we are both alone.
She was putting stars in my soul
With her tender words
My mind could not withhold
All the emotion I had felt…
Please connect iPhone to iTunes < < >Please choose a date you'd like to restore from.< -----November 1, 2014 6:34 PM Western time----- -----March 15, 2016 9:47 PM Mountain time-----*****Reset*****
November 1st 6:34pm —- 7 minutes before I met you. How do I remember this? Because I was sitting on the beach in Santa Monica with some friends watching the sun set, waiting for you.
March 15th 9:47pm —- This is the moment you asked if you could go to LA for a week, to visit a family you use to work with.
In November little did I know I would fall madly in love with you.
In March little did I know you would fly away to visit
a foster family that had held a special place in your heart, and a guy from your past.
If I could go back, what date would I chose to reset? November a day where I could just walk away. Or March the day I could have said no, I have something planned for us this week.
Instead I will let it play out, I knew you had been wanting to see the foster family you had worked with, so I will slip the engagement ring back in to my pocket, and wait for your return. . .
-*-*-*-*November 5th, 2016. 9:01PM-*-*-*-*
Folded blue jeans that hold a secret, a secret never found.
All I want, is to talk with you. talk with you before the earth tilts and reveals the lumanince of the sun. And long after the sky becomes littered with cosmic glitter.
All I want, is you to rememeber my name. the name that would so delicately roll off your lips.
All I want, is for us to talk like we use to. long letters, handwritten passion, the detailed explanation of a dreamy composition.
All I want, is to kiss your cold lips and catch the breath as it evacuates your lungs.
All I want, is to hold your hands, and pray with you. To only pray that I may have you in my life once more.
Something has consumed my mind with the thought of you. I cannot seem to cleanse any mental image without your name appearing.
I am not sure what this means. But I will continue to pray for your and your boyfriend. a prayer of peace, comfort, growth, and love.
With my sincerest thoughts I will maintain the attitude of keeping my distance and respect the reality of the “I want mentality.” For I respect relationships and do not see to destroy what is loved.
Longing for something I want. . .
Signed the Sincerest.